I’m waking up again. Spring is opening and folding in on itself. The air trembles just above the ground. When I hold my breath, you are still breathing. You carry the thrilling sounds, the scent of expectation, wrapped in a cool kind of warmth. The air holds no distance. I kiss you so you don’t have to speak.
Life
Now I Know
“Why didn’t I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.” —Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
New Game
I’m in heavy play-mode these days. I have several interesting games going. This is where I need to be in my practices; where I need to cultivate the power, attention, and resources to make a shift into a new game. I will increase the sensation in my body and spend the resources on the desires that will feed me. I’m […]
Infinite Player
“There are two kinds of games in the universe: finite games and infinite games. A finite game is played to win. An infinite game, on the other hand, is played to keep the game going. It does not terminate because there is no winner. Finite games require rules that remain constant. The game fails if the rules change during the […]
Burning Fire
I want no distance between myself and what is real. Let it burn every defense until only sensation remains. Just the heat, the truth, and the clarity of having nothing left to hide.
Silent Sensations
My hand holds a small heap of dark cherries. Cool skins settle against my skin. The first bite is an abrupt burst of sour wine and summer sun. Before the sweet finishes, another follows. No ceremony, just honest hunger answering itself.
Sharing A Frame
Sipping a coffee alone in a cafe in Copenhagen writing and listening to Bach – yeah Bach, wtf? – enjoying the thick feeling of rain clouds overhead and the drizzle outside the steamy cafe windows. The air is warm and humid and a couple sits beside me plotting and planning their lives together with real gusto, too accented for me […]
Peaks and Valleys
“New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.” ~Lao Tzu Are you breaking up with me? After I regain consciousness from the initial shock and surprise I crack open. The high sensations from the sharp pain and sorrow pierce through me and I am swept instantly and thoroughly into a deep, wet mourning as my life as I knew it […]